Hello everyone! How has your week been??
It’s been a couple weeks since my double post about surgery, so here’s a quick update on me. I am fabulous!
Here’s a more indepth update: energy level is increasing, including stamina, thus I am close to where I had been leading up to surgery only with more breaks. Although I get sore eventually, it takes longer to get there and fewer meds to overcome.
Most importantly, each day I am improving!
Several weeks ago now, I posted a video update on my socials thanking those sending positive thoughts, healing energy, and even prayers. I believe all these help me!
Furthermore, I thanked all those offering direct help along the way too, such as meals, candy, coffee, rides, phone calls, text messages, including my kids who help with laundry, taking out the trash, and various tasks beyond my lifting restriction.
The positive energy around me is palpable, aiding in my recovery, thus helping me be where I am, which is ahead of schedule.
I am grateful for everyone who’s been along this ride with me.
I mean everyone!
Even with the most casual inquiry about how I am doing, I smile, knowing this person cares about me. My heart fills with joy from these questions and subsequent smiles, generating my only logical answer:
I am fabulous.
Admittedly, I have said this while uncomfortable, sore in places you don’t want to be sore, or even tired to the point of nearly falling asleep; however, I absolutely believe I am fabulous.
I love that word: fabulous!
There’s an energy with that word, giving me strength and confidence that those pains are temporary, while my elation is endless. For me, that word sheds light on those joys, as it mitigates the pains.
I believe this focus on positive energy has helped me recover so nicely, though I have no basis other than myself and my belief. Then again, I don’t need anything beyond myself and my belief.
Inevitably, when something does go awry, I don’t believe it’s the lack of positive energy, because there is always positive energy around.
Keep in mind, even in pain, it could be worse; even in struggles, we have progress; even in heartache, we have growth.
There is always positives to be found.
In the days leading up to my surgery, I wasn’t sure it would actually happen. Everything was planned out for a year, including insurance, yet in the days before, there was a small timing problem.
I am on COBRA, but during the transitional period from employer coverage to COBRA, it appears as though you don’t have insurance. Unfortunately, I was in that period.
I struggled. I had heartache. I was sad. I was convinced I wouldn’t have my surgery.
In response, I immediately committed to finishing my book, pouring hours into it that weekend.
Yes, I was going to finish my book regardless of surgery. Nevertheless, when sadness creeped in, I put my energy towards my book, so that no matter what, something positive would happen.
I prepared to tell the world: my surgery didn’t happen, but I finished my book.
Determined to manifest some good, I did finish my book. Okay, I finished the first draft, which is a huge step! Follow up drafts are a different vibe with a varied timeline with a real set of tasks for finishing.
Finishing. Publishing. Reaching my goal. Even if it wasn’t surgery.
As we know, my surgery happened. Turns out I was able to double dip in the positives. Thank you Universe!! I am very grateful!
For anyone who reads this, I am very grateful for you!
Additionally, I am grateful for anyone who absorbs my message of positivity, as well as those who let me know! Truly, it brings me joy bringing this positivity to this world!
As I move forward, my book is becoming my main focus, as recently I announced to the world of social media that I will have it available by the end of January. While I have put significant time and energy, this final stretch will be grueling.
I’m ready! I am super excited! I am fabulous!
I have plans on plans for after my book comes out, including beginning using author and speaker as my titles. See I need to be paid to be able to use either of those.
However, it could all come crashing down, should some of these plans go awry. Then where will I be?
I will be right back here. I will be fabulous. I will have grown. I will make progress. It could always be worse.
I believe this all to be true, just as I believe I can keep going no matter what, as there is always positive energy to be found. People will make me smile.
For those who’ve only known me as Hazel, it’s likely all you’ve known is me as this positive person I am.
On the other hand, my book will tell a story of pain, struggles, and heartache without any growth or progress. That was my worst. I was miserably hopeless.
Until I started to believe.
Belief is powerful.
If we believe in the possibility, then it’s never impossible. While there is no guarantee of success through simply believing, we can nearly guarantee failure if we don’t believe.
I say all this for myself, as much as anyone else. On the verge of my next transition, I am scared. While I hope to transition to author and speaker, or at least be successful, I have no idea if it will happen.
Regardless, when people ask me how I am doing, I will smile because they care enough to ask, then tell them: I am fabulous.
I have transitioned my name, my life, my body, all fabulously, so what’s one more?
While my short term objective is my book, my longer term goal is finding my niche in this world.
What do you think of Transitional Speaker and Writer? Or maybe Transitional Coach?
We all have our next transition in us, even if it’s not your gender like me, so I want to get that out of everyone. My first lesson is believing in yourself, emphasizing kindness towards yourself.
More to come on this topic! I will be adding some working notes, so let me know what you think!!
Also, let me know what kind words you are saying to yourself today!
Have a fabulous week everyone!!
I love this! When I used to drop my kids off at school, I would always tell them “have a terrific, wonderful, fabulous day!”